Monday, April 13th, 2009
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4:09 pm
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Today is my 21st birthday...
I actually made it.
Surprising.
current mood:  hopeful
current music: "Just Dance" -- Lady GaGa
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Monday, January 19th, 2009
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3:11 pm - 2009
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The year that everything is supposed to change.
Thus far:
-It was validated that my harddrive has met its end.
A career is over before it began.
-Currently, I am trying to find a place to live.
Neo-Nazi Nelson and I are calling it quits.
-In a few hours, my childhood cat is being put down.
Needless to say, my heart has ruptured.
It gets worse before it gets better.
current mood:  melancholy
current music: "Twilight Time" - The Platters
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Sunday, November 30th, 2008
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5:16 pm - Almost a year...
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What's left to fight for except a lonely tomorrow?
* * *
"Just give me one good year
To get my feet back on the ground
I've been chasing grace
But grace ain't so easily found
One bad hand can devil a man
A good one can turn him around
I gotta get out of here
Just give me one good year"
current mood:  distressed
current music: "Just Give Me One Good Year" -- Slaid Cleaves
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Wednesday, December 19th, 2007
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7:57 pm - Memories.
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2007 is almost over.
This journal is almost over.
2008 is on its way.
A new life is on its way.
* * *
My number is still the same, for anyone left out there in LJland.
For anyone who has a vested interested...
I'm doing all right for myself these days.
Sans car.
Sans internet.
Sans drugs & alcohol.
2007 has been the worst year of my life.
2008 will be much, much better.
current mood: hopeful
current music: "Relax, Take it Easy" -- Mika
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Wednesday, October 31st, 2007
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5:19 pm
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To whom it may concern;
I'm still alive.
Sincerely,
Cari
* * *
207-240-4219
Always and (maybe not) Forever.
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Tuesday, October 9th, 2007
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3:53 pm
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Remember boils and ghouls... it's that time of the year again.
If you, or anyone you know would be interested in having me do your make-up for Halloween... LET ME KNOW!
I'm down for whatever... just know, that a girl has to make a living... so there will be a small fee of course.
Call me at:
207-240-4219
ANY TIME!
I will answer, we will talk, and you will look absolutely terrifying for Halloween!
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Tuesday, October 2nd, 2007
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12:32 am
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The lessons taught by mothers are the ones we must never forget.
Things are just things.
We are not defined by what we own.
It's okay not to have a lot of money.
It's okay to scrape by.
As long as you're happy.
And I am.
For the first time in nearly two years.
* * *
I may have found something close to my ideal man.
Perfect strangers make the perfect match.
current mood:  grateful
current music: "Sorry" -- The Tiny ft. Ed Harcourt
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Tuesday, September 25th, 2007
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3:59 pm
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Hello there, 6g septum!
It's not visible unless you're looking at my profile.
I have a plug in my face.
...Sometimes I wonder about myself.
Do you?
current mood:  hot
current music: Gogol Bordello
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2:36 am
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I can't wait for Wednesday night...
At about 7:20ish...
When I'm back at Mister Boy's.
:)
I think I may be growing slightly attached.
Uh-oh.
Who knows...
Maybe this is what I need.
Something good in my life for a change.
He's proving to be quite the catch, thus far.
current mood:  content
current music: "Everything for Free" -- The Tiny
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Wednesday, September 19th, 2007
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2:21 am
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Sorrowful Swedish songs on repeat.
2:30 in the morning.
I'm alone and it's peculiar.
As of late, I spend 95% of my free time at Mister Boy's apartment.
It's comfortable (he's comfortable).
Thus far, he's proven not to be a douchebag or an asshole.
We've only been seeing each other for a month, though.
Who knows what the future may bring?
Happiness? Love? Douchebaggery? Solitude?
My hopes remain indifferent until the situation progresses.
...Though, I simply adore sleeping with him in his oh so tiny bed.
* * *
He made me really smile on Monday:
Me: "It'll be nice to do laundry tomorrow night."
Boy: "You're going home tomorrow?"
Me: "Mmm-hmm."
Boy: "When will you be back?"
Me: "Wednesday night, probably."
Boy: *insert some incredibly peculiar noise*
Me: "*laughing* What the hell was that?"
Boy: "That was me whining. I like it when you stay here."
current mood:  drained
current music: "Second Time Around" -- The Tiny
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Tuesday, September 18th, 2007
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7:18 pm
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This gypsy life of mine is making me weary in the most beautiful way.
* * *
Kisses so pure and passionate are a welcome change of pace.
* * *
Financially rueful.
Some things never change.
* * *
The autumn air makes me nostalgic.
For the better.
...I suppose.
* * *
Thank you for taking the time to talk to me.
You will never know how lonely I had become.
I no longer crave human touch.
I no longer yearn to feel raw emotion.
I no longer fear that I don't exist.
* * *
There are still three and a half months left.
Let's make the most of them.
current mood:  curious
current music: "Sunny Road" -- Emiliana Torrini
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Monday, September 10th, 2007
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10:23 pm
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"He had a great girl and chose to be an asshole."
Gentlemen are hard to come by.
I think I've got myself one this time.
...Good lord do I hope so.
current mood:  awake
current music: "Can't Smile" -- Vex Red
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Thursday, September 6th, 2007
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11:26 am
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Bird flew through my window and said,
"Look at me. I have flown right through this glass unscathed."
"But bird," I cried, "that window was wide open."
Then he stared right through me in the strangest way.
* * *
September.
You are a peculiar month.
current mood:  guilty
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Sunday, September 2nd, 2007
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8:40 pm - I can't stay away.
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Livejournal has been a terrible weakness of mine for years.
Even if there's nobody left to read my trivial rants and raves, it's still somewhat of a cathartic hobby.
* * *
Life gets crazier every single day.
I let go and I'm now enjoying the ride.
Sometimes it gets difficult living day to day.
I'm managing.
I never know where I'll be.
If I'll have money.
If I'll owe money.
Who I'm going to be with.
What I'm going to do.
My life has been turned upside down this year.
And I'm making it work.
I'll be okay.
I'm always okay.
current mood:  hivetastic
current music: "Love is an Arrow" -- Aberfeldy
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Saturday, August 18th, 2007
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2:52 am - The end (for now).
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There's nothing left to say, really.
Even if there was, there's nobody left listening.
I'll be around.
Somewhere.
For the final time I'm going to ask this:
If you feel like taking me in for a while, if you have a couch that needs a warm body, if you have an apartment that needs a roommate (if I can't find a job I'd leave), if you just want to spend time with me... let me know. I'm over this whole 'life in Maine' thing and it's time for me to go. So to whomever is left reading these words... my number is 207-240-4219.
Adios, cowboy.
current mood:  contemplative
current music: "Don't Look Back In Anger" -- ortoPilot
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Thursday, August 16th, 2007
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9:16 pm
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Loathing, love, & lust.
Self-destruction & mass distraction.
Sex, drugs, & rock 'n' roll.
Disorientation.
Wanderlust, warmongering, waste.
Instinctual judgements.
Dancing. Dancing? Dancing!
Insomniatic induced ideals.
Simply stubborn.
My life often feels scripted.
All the events.
All the people.
All the ideas.
It's all something out of a movie.
Ironic.
(End scene)
current mood:  high
current music: "Straight Lines" -- Silverchair
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Wednesday, August 15th, 2007
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4:38 am - Oh no!
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Watch out, boys.
I may give you THE HERP!!
(Rigid collodion on the lips is a really fucking piss poor idea, by the way.)
current mood:  exhausted
current music: "Flood" -- Hurts to Purr
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Monday, August 13th, 2007
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11:36 am
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Fucking hilarious how things turn out.
Really.
The only thing that makes me happy these days...
is the one thing I have to keep myself away from.
I won't, though.
I just want to have some semblance of happiness.
(A little fun, too.)
You will never hear me apologize for these actions.
current mood:  devious
current music: "Jealous of the Moon" -- Nickel Creek
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Friday, August 10th, 2007
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3:37 am
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It's what you do that matters, right?
Personally, I would be fine with words.
However.
My actions are dictating my life.
And the lives of those around me.
Who have I become?
* * *
This time...
I'm getting all that I desire.
current mood: exhausted
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Thursday, August 2nd, 2007
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1:32 am
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Things are never quite the way you want them to be.
It's as simple as that.
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